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hi. sorry again for not updating for so long
so much have happened in my life for the past 6 months. life's getting harder but in some way getting better by the day. :)

I've made great friends, with those i've never thought that i'd be close to. life is seriously full of surprises.

for now i can gladly say that I'm actually enjoying my life in college. Though Ive been through countless tough times in this college, somehow it grew on me.

I'm so glad that I've moved on with my life and forget whatever in the past. i can't say that I've forgotten about everything, but those memories that i don't tend to keep, they're slowly fading away.

OBS, STE and the summer holidays changed my point of view on life a hell lot. Ive discovered so much about myself, friends and life. to those who had helped me through the obstacles, thank you so much.

obs was a great challenge, kayaking, solo camping and hiking really pushed me beyond my limits. till today, i still can't believe i actually went through all that. but thanks to irau, i survived. :)

ste was fun. met a few other petronas scholars and great friendships were made. i miss them so much.

celebrated my 3rd year anniversary with my sayang last august. felt like it was just yesterday when i first saw him. 

had a trip to singapore. just the two of us.

love you more than ever baby

so,for now, life is okay. i'm happy. 

Alhamdulillah

here I am again.

gosh, how i wish i could turn back time to the last day of term 3 last year.

I am now back in the jail once again. :s

trying to cope with my studies now. but still not trying my best.

gosh i really have to buck up in my studies otherwise, i'll be dead by june (i'll be sitting for my AS by then).

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i miss my buddies to death. HANIIIIIII!!! SHAANNAAAAAA!!! SOFIIIIII!!!!! I NEEED YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

I wish you guys are here with me. :'(

Things Have Changed For Me And That's Okay.

I'm going off to college tomorrow so i better at least write something before i go. God knows the next time I'd be able to write again.

I can't say either time flies fast or slow.

To all my friends, thank you for making my high school years the most amazing years in my life. I'm gonna miss all the special moments(and some that i've already missed), i spent with each and every one of you, filled with laughter, joy and even sadness.

Words can't describe how much you mean to me.

P.S. this post is dedicated to : Kreal, Nadiah, Hani, Sofiyah, Munirah, Teena, Shanaa, Wani, Liyana, Kanesh, Raja, Nabilah, Fara Nabiha, Sara, Farahin, Sykin, Ella, Nasha, Hanis, Wahida, Liyana Busuk, Mira K, Nisa, Leeyana, Sara Iliana, Emiraldi, Luke, Ganesh.

Eighteen and Preparations

guess what?

I've turn 18! This is not exactly news since my birthday was two weeks ago. hahaha

I have to say this year's is one of the best birthdays i've ever had (not just because i got the best birthday gift ever hehe) ! All thanks to my family, friends and especially sayang. :) I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Apart from turning a year older, I've been so busy with preparations. Not just mine, but darling's too!

God, why is this taking so long? Seriously, I can't wait to enter college. Not that I'm that excited to go, just that i'm restless and all i do now is spending and wasting my money.

I've been visiting my friends who are now college students already, which makes me more eager than ever to jumpstart my life again.

this is all for now, so till then. chao

thursday, come quick!

can't wait for darling to come back in 2 days time

oh, thursday, can't you come any slower??

anyway, despite the dreadful days i went through , i actually had a decent time with my family last weekend.

I went to KTJ last saturday with my family to pick up my uniform (petronas is paying for everything! how cool is that??) so i had the chance to see close-up how the college looks like in real life.

the scene was breathtaking. seriously. Though i know that i'll take my words back once i start going there, but it was really beautiful. The whole place is literally covered by trees. The buildings are very british-like, really historic looking. Although the place is quite secluded from everywhere else, i feel that its the right place for studying. Like my mom said, far away from the city life, far away from the distractions and shopping centres :P

The uniform is basically white, grey and a little bit of dark red, close to maroon. The colour of the blazer is according to the form, so mine is grey. I'll upload a pic of myself wearing the uniform later.

I know that this is hardly an update but i promise i'll write again soon.
got a medical checkup tomorrow(aaaa blood testtt, needles :s) so gotta get some sleep.

chao for now (sorry for the distorted picture. later i'll take a better one)

Painful to be Beautiful

I've started to control my diet since 3 days ago

besides exercising, this is the other way I'm using to keep myself from eating too much :

everytime i see food in front of my face, i'll force myself to remember the moments that made me feel outmost terrible about my body. Just now at dinner, i recall the gathering last december, which was the one my friends and i had right after the end of our major examination.

that night i wore (used to be) my fav white babydoll blouse and my pair of dark blue jeans.

thank god it happened towards the end of the night. Otherwise, it could've spoiled my whole evening.

I was helping my friends, cleaning and packing some stuff on one of the dining tables, when this guy (my friend's boyfriend i think) stood at the opposite side of the table and looked at me with the 'ini bukan ke....' expression on his face (sorry, can't find the exact words that could define how he looked). And then, he asked my friend , " Ini bukan ke... yang sama futsal team ngan korang dulu?" "Yelahhh!" replied my friend with an annoyed tone in her voice. THEN, these words came out from his mouth, 'eeeeeeeeee...... dah gemuk!!! eeee.. mok mok!'.

So i guess you can imagine how I felt after that.

i've actually tried a few diets before this, but none lasted more than a week. So, hopefully this will be THE ONE.

Wish me luck.

Other than trying to avoid myself from possibly stuffing my face without control, i've actually done a few interesting stuff these past few days.

Last Sunday, I took a whole tour of Klang Valley with my sayang. Well of course not exactly the WHOLE of it. hehe

It was really fun, i would say. I end up having a headache when i got back home. Trust me you would have one if you were me. We started off going to Bangsar first , then Gardens Mid Valley, KL (near bukit bintang and also heritage) , Mont kiara, Hartamas, and Mutiara Damansara (curve, ikano and ikea).

crrrrazzzy right?

haha. That's us. If we had more energy, who knows, maybe we could have been in Penang, eating Asam Laksa over there already.


gotta go. continue later. :)

Anne

to Nadiah;

woke up this morning and realised that i was late with my meet up with you. I quickly got up and took a bath, with my eyes hardly opened. Excited i was to see my bestest friend in the whole wide world :)

I still remember the first time i saw you, we were still in our primary school. Though you had been my schoolmate for years , but i never really noticed you before. It was sometime in the afternoon, school hours had just finished. "Itulah Nadiah, kelas sama dengan kita. Dia pun suka Fahmi" said one of my close friends, with her finger pointing at the girl who stood behind the school's public phone. My friend wasn't in good terms with you, seeing you as a threat as both of you guys had crushes on the same guy (haha do u still remember?). Never had I imagined that you would turn out to be the most amazing girl i've ever met.

We only started being friends when we entered high school. After being in the same class for two years in a row in usj12, we became the best of friends.

I've never been comfortable with anyone as i am with you. Whenever, whatever, wherever, you're always there for me. You understood me like nobody else could (other than darling of course, heh) and made me feel good about being myself. You're the best friend there is. I've always hoped that i could do the same for you.

Though I know that you've gone through a lot of hard times in the past two years, but I hope that you will stay tough as you have always been. I am sorry if at times I wasn't there when you needed me the most as how you've always been there for me. I know that we will be busy with our own lives soon, but I will try my very best to be there for you. No matter what, no one could ever replace you as my best friend. You're truly one of a kind, Nadiah.

Love,

Dee